Friday, February 3, 2012

Miley Fan Of The Month Melissa Richards (@MileysRobot)

I have picked from many dedicated Smilers to be Miley Fan Of The Month and it is Melissa Richards. She is an amzing person with an amazing story she is also an  amazing artist and has been noticed by Miley herself here is her Story and some of her art. Follow her on Twitter to see more of her creations

''I can’t really say how music effects my life or inspires me, when I think about life without music it doesn’t seem possible but I guess that’s because without music I don’t think I’d still be here today. Most importantly, without Miley Cyrus I don’t think I’d be here today and finally I’m willing to open up about this so people know how special she is to me personally. I’d started my second year of college and things were getting harder with work and along with a failed relationship and a few knock backs from other guys I started feeling like it was my fault. I started hating who I was, on the outside but most importantly on the inside. Every day was a struggle and people didn’t know, I’d walk to college with my headphones in on top volume and trying to forget the world but sometimes it just wouldn’t work. That’s when I knew I had a problem. Anxiety stopped me from sleeping my heart was always racing too much and I’ve always told myself that I wouldn’t cut, ever and to be fair I didn’t, instead I started bruising my arm as much as I could. And then when I’d have a moment where I hated myself again, or my parents shouted at me or my friends were being crappy I’d squeeze or knock it properly to “punish” myself for being me. I couldn’t go a day without crying and was getting exhausted from all the “forced smiling”. I really believed that all I was doing was ruining people’s lives and when my friends started to find out what was happening that’s when I realized I had to try get through it. Sure, I wanted to kill myself, I didn’t want to be me and I couldn’t exactly change that. But seeing my friends (in particular one that I could never thank enough) begging me not to and going to the end of the earth to help me pushed me to find help, not professional help though no, I went to the one person who’s always there for me. That’s Miss Cyrus, in times where no one can get through to you, when the world hates you and you pretty much hate the world music can save you. All my life I’ve been made fun of for what I like and the way I run my life, I’m not your typical 18 year old girl and I’m punished for it. These people do whatever it takes to push you down and down and I let them but it was Miley that brought me back again. Songs such as “Robot” and “Liberty Walk” helped me feel like I should be proud of what I want to do and proud of who I am. So everyday I’d listen to her albums and remind myself someone out there is grateful for the life I’m living, even if she doesn’t even know me or never will know what she’s done for me. Every night I’d listen to her slow songs so sing me to sleep or before I went to bed I’d read her book to remind me everyone has a problem with being accepted one day in their lives. I’d watch her Tour videos online and feel the raw emotion she sings with and just tell myself that one day I’ll be able to witness that for myself and feel it with her and the thousands of onlookers. She’s one of the most criticized singers in the business and she’ s practically my age and she can handle it, she can handle millions of people trying to bring her down and so I told myself I could too with the few people that wanted to do it to me. Now she inspires me to continue living my life and when things go wrong and I fail, to pick myself back up because her music will always be there for me to help block that out. I’ll thank her one day for that I’m sure.''          

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